So my calories this week have been in the 1800-2000 range (slightly over yesterday with Mom's homemade macaroni and cheese, but it was worth it!) and I'm a happy girl. I can feel this becoming normal, like I know I could eat like this forever. Its a good feeling, I feel like I have some momentum!
The best part is that I feel SO much better having more to eat, like I can actually FEEL my body working better. I'm wide awake in the morning, no coffee needed, and I haven't been cranky. Its amazing! I haven't jumped back into the exercise yet, its been a little busier at work this week since I'm gone all next week, and coming back in time for a big presentation next Friday. But all next week we're on vacation, and I'm planning on long walks with my husband and in-laws.
And I'm totally over the baby name thing with my SIL...I have names that are NOT on her list, like Isla and Juliet (although my husband thinks they're both bizarre- lol) And Carlos- I love the name Bella! I actually used to like the name Lucy too, but it has a weird vibe to it now....lol
We're starting to get ready for our trip to Virginia- and by starting to get ready, I mean I think I know where the suitcases are, and I still have no clean laundry. Hmm.
Hope you all are having a fabulous week- we can do this, one change at a time!
Breaking News!!
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I think I know why I haven't been losing weight!!!!!!
Breefawn on Spark People (love love love that site) had something about Basal Metabolic Rate on her SparkPage, so I calculated mine. My body uses 1810 calories a day for breathing, pumping blood, metabolizing food, just existing! I had set my calories at 1500-1700 (based on a calculator I did in January-ish). Which means I wasn't even eating enough calories for my body to exist, let alone adding in all the amazing exercise I've been doing! Bree suggested eating at least my BMR in calories, and if I'm still hungry to eat no more than half of what I did in exercise.
And it gets better:
MrsPrincess07 (also on SP) said here's a calculator to figure out what you should be eating everyday based on your weight, height, age and body fat. To lose weight, it said I should be eating between 2081-2212 or 2007-2133 calories a day based on light activity 1-3 days a week. OMG!
http://www.freedomfly.net/Documents/calorie_calculator.xls
SO. I'm re-adjusting my calories to I think 1800-2000 a day. And I'm going to keep doing the exercise, because I love it! And I am SOOOOO excited!!
Breefawn on Spark People (love love love that site) had something about Basal Metabolic Rate on her SparkPage, so I calculated mine. My body uses 1810 calories a day for breathing, pumping blood, metabolizing food, just existing! I had set my calories at 1500-1700 (based on a calculator I did in January-ish). Which means I wasn't even eating enough calories for my body to exist, let alone adding in all the amazing exercise I've been doing! Bree suggested eating at least my BMR in calories, and if I'm still hungry to eat no more than half of what I did in exercise.
And it gets better:
MrsPrincess07 (also on SP) said here's a calculator to figure out what you should be eating everyday based on your weight, height, age and body fat. To lose weight, it said I should be eating between 2081-2212 or 2007-2133 calories a day based on light activity 1-3 days a week. OMG!
http://www.freedomfly.net/Documents/calorie_calculator.xls
SO. I'm re-adjusting my calories to I think 1800-2000 a day. And I'm going to keep doing the exercise, because I love it! And I am SOOOOO excited!!
Venting
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Every once in awhile, you just need to let it all out. Despite the NSV's, I'm in a slump and not happy about life. My Mom says sometimes you just have to erupt and get it out of your system. Well, here it is.
*I have been ramping up the physical activity and cutting the calories (1500-1700) and have only been over 1700 twice this week, and one of them wasn't even over 1800. I've emphasized fruits and veggies (no less than 4 servings a day, but 8 almost half the week). And after all that I have not lost a single damn pound. I wasn't expecting a 20lb weight-loss from the week and a half of effort, but seriously, not even half a pound??
*My Biggest Loser buddies are doing extremely well, and I'm barely keeping it under my starting weight.
*I'm actually flipping out over my sister-in-law who is (not only naturally skinny) but adorably pregnant, and has taken what I've irrationally considered MY baby girl names of Charlotte and Ella.
*We're leaving in less than a week to spend 6 days with my in-laws. I hate traveling, and my MIL makes me nervous.
*My house is a disaster, and I'm so behind on laundry that I'm almost out of clean underwear.
And really that about covers it. I've been cranky all weekend, and I have a Biggest Loser weigh-in three hours from now. Dammit.
*I have been ramping up the physical activity and cutting the calories (1500-1700) and have only been over 1700 twice this week, and one of them wasn't even over 1800. I've emphasized fruits and veggies (no less than 4 servings a day, but 8 almost half the week). And after all that I have not lost a single damn pound. I wasn't expecting a 20lb weight-loss from the week and a half of effort, but seriously, not even half a pound??
*My Biggest Loser buddies are doing extremely well, and I'm barely keeping it under my starting weight.
*I'm actually flipping out over my sister-in-law who is (not only naturally skinny) but adorably pregnant, and has taken what I've irrationally considered MY baby girl names of Charlotte and Ella.
*We're leaving in less than a week to spend 6 days with my in-laws. I hate traveling, and my MIL makes me nervous.
*My house is a disaster, and I'm so behind on laundry that I'm almost out of clean underwear.
And really that about covers it. I've been cranky all weekend, and I have a Biggest Loser weigh-in three hours from now. Dammit.
Shameless Bragging (You've Been Warned!)
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So I think I've had an epiphany. I think I actually enjoy physical activity. Its amazing to me. I used to say exercise was bad for my health, because my thighs would rub together and set my shorts on fire. But I've done some serious physical activity, and a fire extinguisher was not needed a single time.
Please allow me a moment to brag, because I am so dang proud of myself.
On Saturday my dear Biggest Loser friend Stacey and I decided to go for a bike ride on Douglas Trail, which starts near Stacey's house. It wasn't bad and I was even able to walk the next day. Imagine my surprise when we calculated that we did 12 miles, plus a killer hill!
Next day I did 20 minutes on the treadmill to work out the kinks in my legs, and ran for three minutes of it, which amazes me because its been SO long since I've ran.
Yesterday I was inspired by the Best of Spark People email about your pet being a good exercise partner, so Max (picture below) and I went out for a walk. Now he's not used to being an exercise partner so I was alternating between dragging him and being dragged, but we did a serious four mile walk. And I will never ever trust my weather-obsessed husband for the forecast, because he said oh it will be nice honey! Nice translated into getting drenched and hailed on two miles from home. But we slogged through, and made it home soaking wet and covered in mud. But Max slept like a log last night!
Today was a 3.5 mile bike ride with my husband to Great Harvest for fresh bread, and a stop at the Good Food store for the fake egg salad (tofu) to go on it! It was fun to do that with Marmot, I think we're going to make that a tradition. The biggest high of the entire time was my husband being winded and I wasn't. He's always been in good shape, but the desk job is catching up with him. I was so proud of myself!
The weirdest thing is that after all this, I'm looking forward to doing more. I'm psyched about doing the four mile walk with Max again tomorrow, he has a new Gentle Leader collar and I think he could be the perfect exercise buddy!
So yeah, I apologize for the bragging but this has been an amazing week. I have not dropped a pound, but I'm still psyched!
Please allow me a moment to brag, because I am so dang proud of myself.
On Saturday my dear Biggest Loser friend Stacey and I decided to go for a bike ride on Douglas Trail, which starts near Stacey's house. It wasn't bad and I was even able to walk the next day. Imagine my surprise when we calculated that we did 12 miles, plus a killer hill!
Next day I did 20 minutes on the treadmill to work out the kinks in my legs, and ran for three minutes of it, which amazes me because its been SO long since I've ran.
Yesterday I was inspired by the Best of Spark People email about your pet being a good exercise partner, so Max (picture below) and I went out for a walk. Now he's not used to being an exercise partner so I was alternating between dragging him and being dragged, but we did a serious four mile walk. And I will never ever trust my weather-obsessed husband for the forecast, because he said oh it will be nice honey! Nice translated into getting drenched and hailed on two miles from home. But we slogged through, and made it home soaking wet and covered in mud. But Max slept like a log last night!
Today was a 3.5 mile bike ride with my husband to Great Harvest for fresh bread, and a stop at the Good Food store for the fake egg salad (tofu) to go on it! It was fun to do that with Marmot, I think we're going to make that a tradition. The biggest high of the entire time was my husband being winded and I wasn't. He's always been in good shape, but the desk job is catching up with him. I was so proud of myself!
The weirdest thing is that after all this, I'm looking forward to doing more. I'm psyched about doing the four mile walk with Max again tomorrow, he has a new Gentle Leader collar and I think he could be the perfect exercise buddy!
So yeah, I apologize for the bragging but this has been an amazing week. I have not dropped a pound, but I'm still psyched!
*Sigh*
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I'm proud of myself for what I've done so far. But I'm also feeling like I'm doing an uphill battle with the comparison game. I'm intensely competitive, as my husband and family can attest to. So when I'm losing weight (which has the added clout of being extremely personal!) its sometimes a good thing that I'm competitive because it spurs me on! But it also pulls me down when I'm constantly comparing my progress to somebody elses.
The scale has not budged in a week. Seriously. I'm doing the right stuff in terms of getting my physical activity in and monitoring what goes in my mouth, but I feel like I just haven't found the right combination. I'm going to be adding more physical activity starting this weekend, so we'll see what happens.
I'm still plodding along, and I'm still proud of myself. I'm just feeling a little frustrated.
The scale has not budged in a week. Seriously. I'm doing the right stuff in terms of getting my physical activity in and monitoring what goes in my mouth, but I feel like I just haven't found the right combination. I'm going to be adding more physical activity starting this weekend, so we'll see what happens.
I'm still plodding along, and I'm still proud of myself. I'm just feeling a little frustrated.
Rewards
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Its in ALL the do-not-do-this lists. You should never ever reward yourself with food. But after depriving yourself of food, it feels like the most natural thing right?
So I walked into the breakroom at work to heat up my cup of soup yesterday. I'd just gotten done with an incredibly stressful meeting and got some pretty big marching orders for what I need accomplished in a week. I was stressed, but confident that I can do it. I did well at the meeting. And I saw some food and thought, I deserve that.
Pause with me for a second while we answer a question- who deserves food? Starving people, the kids from the cable ads. Absolutely, they deserve food. People who have lost their jobs and need to feed their family. My dog Max deserves his kibble for guarding the house. Do I deserve food? I weigh 227lbs, I think its fairly obvious that I've consumed my fair share and someone else deserves it more.
Back to the breakroom- I'm waiting for the soup to heat up. And I look at what I was going to reward myself with. And it got me thinking again.
What do I deserve if I'm going to reward myself? Its going to be good. It may not be food either, but if I reward myself its going to be a damn reward. So that led me to: what did I do to deserve three-day old bagels? (Yes, I was actually contemplating 'rewarding' myself with three-day old bagels.)
Then I laughed outloud at myself. Really, what DO you do to deserve half a dried out bagel as a 'reward'. Kick a kitten?
Sometimes my thought processes make me shake my head. But I resisted the bagels, and I'm resisting the Special K bars today! I want a reward, and its going to be seeing my goal weight on the scale. Food is not something I deserve, or something that is a true reward because it only takes me back a step. I want the true reward.
Hope you all are having a fabulous week!
So I walked into the breakroom at work to heat up my cup of soup yesterday. I'd just gotten done with an incredibly stressful meeting and got some pretty big marching orders for what I need accomplished in a week. I was stressed, but confident that I can do it. I did well at the meeting. And I saw some food and thought, I deserve that.
Pause with me for a second while we answer a question- who deserves food? Starving people, the kids from the cable ads. Absolutely, they deserve food. People who have lost their jobs and need to feed their family. My dog Max deserves his kibble for guarding the house. Do I deserve food? I weigh 227lbs, I think its fairly obvious that I've consumed my fair share and someone else deserves it more.
Back to the breakroom- I'm waiting for the soup to heat up. And I look at what I was going to reward myself with. And it got me thinking again.
What do I deserve if I'm going to reward myself? Its going to be good. It may not be food either, but if I reward myself its going to be a damn reward. So that led me to: what did I do to deserve three-day old bagels? (Yes, I was actually contemplating 'rewarding' myself with three-day old bagels.)
Then I laughed outloud at myself. Really, what DO you do to deserve half a dried out bagel as a 'reward'. Kick a kitten?
Sometimes my thought processes make me shake my head. But I resisted the bagels, and I'm resisting the Special K bars today! I want a reward, and its going to be seeing my goal weight on the scale. Food is not something I deserve, or something that is a true reward because it only takes me back a step. I want the true reward.
Hope you all are having a fabulous week!
The Burn
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Ok, so you are probably well acquainted by now with the fact that I'm a wimp. Its very true, and I will heartily admit it. I am not someone that 'thrives in a challenge' especially the physical type. I am the person who stops 30 minutes into a 40 minute workout DVD and says 'Oh I'm done now, it was starting to burn so thats good enough for me'
I did Jillian Michael's Cardio Kickboxing DVD today, 25 minutes of no-stopping-not-even-for-water and my-lungs-are-on-FIRE move after move. I seriously thought I was going to die. But then when I realized that I didn't die (!) I followed up with 30 minutes of Supercharged Sculpting. But I was looking at Jillian's body thinking yep, someday- and then suddenly had the thought, I'll bet she didn't get the body by not pushing herself.
Ulghhhh. I hate self-reflection. But reality is, I'm not going to get where I want without the burn. Or without feeling winded and sweaty. Or without having my undies ride up my ass in the midst of the tall box climb. Its just going to happen. I won't say I'm ok with that, because its a paradigm shift to think of this kind of physical activity being a daily thing. I'm not ok with it yet, but I'm learning to be ok with that.
I did Jillian Michael's Cardio Kickboxing DVD today, 25 minutes of no-stopping-not-even-for-water and my-lungs-are-on-FIRE move after move. I seriously thought I was going to die. But then when I realized that I didn't die (!) I followed up with 30 minutes of Supercharged Sculpting. But I was looking at Jillian's body thinking yep, someday- and then suddenly had the thought, I'll bet she didn't get the body by not pushing herself.
Ulghhhh. I hate self-reflection. But reality is, I'm not going to get where I want without the burn. Or without feeling winded and sweaty. Or without having my undies ride up my ass in the midst of the tall box climb. Its just going to happen. I won't say I'm ok with that, because its a paradigm shift to think of this kind of physical activity being a daily thing. I'm not ok with it yet, but I'm learning to be ok with that.
Holy Smokes!
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Its been forever since I've posted! Its been a blur of a few weeks, I've been getting up early and then going to bed early, but its been GREAT. I've also been on SparkPeople alot, they have a nice blog feature too that I've ignored until today, so maybe I'll kill two birds with one stone and put my blog entries into both places!
Ok, so today I was lucky enough to have this morning off, I didn't go into work until noon. I disregarded best intentions and slept until 9 (!) and then got out of bed to move to the couch to watch TV (I don't know why I'm fat, really).
I've been doing the Couch to 5k program, and today's workout was 10 minutes of walking, 4 of jogging, and 6 minutes of walking again. I started out, and was inspired by the sounds of my feet hitting the treadmill (wow, I sound like REAL runners at the gym!) but the shin burning feeling kind of intruded on that.
About a minute in, I was thinking wow, this suuuuuucks.
And then I started with the thoughts of maybe I'll stop at two minutes, I'm way out of shape for this.
I made myself banish the thought, but it came back at three minutes!
But I did it anyway, and told myself that I will NEVER get anywhere if I don't push myself! You don't gain muscle strength by only doing the exercises that are FUN, and feel good. Its going to burn, I need to start recognizing the BURN as the GOOD feeling!
SO yeah, I did my four minutes of jogging and I had a BIG grin on my face during my cool down walk. I totally rocked that four minutes, and I'm going to do it again tomorrow!
Ok, so today I was lucky enough to have this morning off, I didn't go into work until noon. I disregarded best intentions and slept until 9 (!) and then got out of bed to move to the couch to watch TV (I don't know why I'm fat, really).
I've been doing the Couch to 5k program, and today's workout was 10 minutes of walking, 4 of jogging, and 6 minutes of walking again. I started out, and was inspired by the sounds of my feet hitting the treadmill (wow, I sound like REAL runners at the gym!) but the shin burning feeling kind of intruded on that.
About a minute in, I was thinking wow, this suuuuuucks.
And then I started with the thoughts of maybe I'll stop at two minutes, I'm way out of shape for this.
I made myself banish the thought, but it came back at three minutes!
But I did it anyway, and told myself that I will NEVER get anywhere if I don't push myself! You don't gain muscle strength by only doing the exercises that are FUN, and feel good. Its going to burn, I need to start recognizing the BURN as the GOOD feeling!
SO yeah, I did my four minutes of jogging and I had a BIG grin on my face during my cool down walk. I totally rocked that four minutes, and I'm going to do it again tomorrow!
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