Its been forever since I've posted! Its been a blur of a few weeks, I've been getting up early and then going to bed early, but its been GREAT. I've also been on SparkPeople alot, they have a nice blog feature too that I've ignored until today, so maybe I'll kill two birds with one stone and put my blog entries into both places!
Ok, so today I was lucky enough to have this morning off, I didn't go into work until noon. I disregarded best intentions and slept until 9 (!) and then got out of bed to move to the couch to watch TV (I don't know why I'm fat, really).
I've been doing the Couch to 5k program, and today's workout was 10 minutes of walking, 4 of jogging, and 6 minutes of walking again. I started out, and was inspired by the sounds of my feet hitting the treadmill (wow, I sound like REAL runners at the gym!) but the shin burning feeling kind of intruded on that.
About a minute in, I was thinking wow, this suuuuuucks.
And then I started with the thoughts of maybe I'll stop at two minutes, I'm way out of shape for this.
I made myself banish the thought, but it came back at three minutes!
But I did it anyway, and told myself that I will NEVER get anywhere if I don't push myself! You don't gain muscle strength by only doing the exercises that are FUN, and feel good. Its going to burn, I need to start recognizing the BURN as the GOOD feeling!
SO yeah, I did my four minutes of jogging and I had a BIG grin on my face during my cool down walk. I totally rocked that four minutes, and I'm going to do it again tomorrow!
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The Right Combination
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I'm working my last night shift before going into the supervisor position in two weeks, and I'm remembering why rotating shifts are miserable. But I have gum! I was munching on the cheez-its in my desk drawer, and kept putting the box away, pulling it out again. Reached into my purse for something and found gum! My savior. My mouth is now occupied (and minty fresh) so the cheez-its can remained undisturbed in my drawer. I took the day off from working out because I was achy when I woke up this morning. Bleh. I forgot my water jug when I left the house for work last night, and my body was screaming for water today- I'm working on my second jug for the day without even trying, and will likely have a third in before I leave in the morning. It's amazing to me that my body so quickly became accustomed to the water again, and how I felt when I didn't have it!
Mother Nature has arrived today, which might explain why the scale still hasn't budged. Tomorrow is WI day for BLBE2 and I was really hoping to log a good loss for the first week! However, I feel like I'm some kind of a safecracker looking for just the right combination to this weight loss safe- I've never factored in AP's in previous losses, and I'm wondering if I need to because I'm staying just about right on with my points and daily workouts, with no difference in the scale. This next week I'm going to eat my AP's and see what happens!
This has been an interesting 24 hours. I blame it on the night shifts (it's soo quiet!) that I've had more time to think about what I'm doing and what part my mind is playing in this journey. My blogging buddies called me out on what I posted earlier, about considering myself unattractive in my goodbye photos. I never thought about what I was saying about myself! I've been thinking about it today as I've seen the comments, and realizing that I do consider myself unattractive, as a baseline. I tried to think back to when I actually thought I was attractive, and let's just say its been a few years. Even I'm thinking, wow. I've always been a connoisseur of sarcastic and dry humor, zero bullshit, tell it like it is. But I've never realized how much I direct that at myself.
Something new to add to my daily to-do list. Stop the negative humor towards myself in its tracks. I didn't realize how much of a part it played in my life, even in off-handed comments. Positive reinforcement has been a goal of mine this final time through the WL journey, but I'm realizing I missed a crucial part of that, getting rid of the negative too.
Thanks to everyone who commented on that- you all are the best!
Mother Nature has arrived today, which might explain why the scale still hasn't budged. Tomorrow is WI day for BLBE2 and I was really hoping to log a good loss for the first week! However, I feel like I'm some kind of a safecracker looking for just the right combination to this weight loss safe- I've never factored in AP's in previous losses, and I'm wondering if I need to because I'm staying just about right on with my points and daily workouts, with no difference in the scale. This next week I'm going to eat my AP's and see what happens!
This has been an interesting 24 hours. I blame it on the night shifts (it's soo quiet!) that I've had more time to think about what I'm doing and what part my mind is playing in this journey. My blogging buddies called me out on what I posted earlier, about considering myself unattractive in my goodbye photos. I never thought about what I was saying about myself! I've been thinking about it today as I've seen the comments, and realizing that I do consider myself unattractive, as a baseline. I tried to think back to when I actually thought I was attractive, and let's just say its been a few years. Even I'm thinking, wow. I've always been a connoisseur of sarcastic and dry humor, zero bullshit, tell it like it is. But I've never realized how much I direct that at myself.
Something new to add to my daily to-do list. Stop the negative humor towards myself in its tracks. I didn't realize how much of a part it played in my life, even in off-handed comments. Positive reinforcement has been a goal of mine this final time through the WL journey, but I'm realizing I missed a crucial part of that, getting rid of the negative too.
Thanks to everyone who commented on that- you all are the best!
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