Thoughts

This has been a rough week! But I’m learning alot of things…

•I’m learning that I need to not put myself in the situation of temptation and expect to make it out alive. Just say no to chinese food.

•Like any other diet, this one is only as good as the effort you put into it. If I don’t work it, it won’t.

•Apple cider vinegar (ACV) is amazing for the weight loss, but even with the organic I still give an involuntary shudder when I see the bottle.

•I’m so lucky to have such a wonderful husband who is so supportive that he’s doing a three week round with me, to lose 15lbs yes, but mostly to help me stay motivated.

•I’m also so lucky to have my wonderful friend Stacey who has come in to kick my ass into gear at just the right times.

•I’ve learned that you should never undervalue soft toilet paper, especially when you drink 4 1-liter bottles of water a day, and pee an average of 5 times per bottle.

•Rotisserie spice doesn’t have sugar or starch in it, and is amazing on chicken.

•I love how my body is changing- this protocol has made me feel like I have control over what happens to my body and how I look.

So those are my thoughts for this week! I’m ready to keep going, and make sure I’m skinnier than my husband before his three weeks are up!

Yay for Water!

I’ve made the discovery that my water intake is often the difference between losing or gaining! Thanks to ashlinimartini on the Low Carb Friends message boards, I’ve been adding a teaspoon of lemon juice and a quarter cup of Splenda to my liter water bottles, making it even easier to get my water in.

I have the habit of flipping the water bottle up and chugging it, my husband says it looks like a hamster and its water bottle. lol

Snuggling with Max and doing a hamster impression...

The Right Combination

I'm working my last night shift before going into the supervisor position in two weeks, and I'm remembering why rotating shifts are miserable. But I have gum! I was munching on the cheez-its in my desk drawer, and kept putting the box away, pulling it out again. Reached into my purse for something and found gum! My savior. My mouth is now occupied (and minty fresh) so the cheez-its can remained undisturbed in my drawer. I took the day off from working out because I was achy when I woke up this morning. Bleh. I forgot my water jug when I left the house for work last night, and my body was screaming for water today- I'm working on my second jug for the day without even trying, and will likely have a third in before I leave in the morning. It's amazing to me that my body so quickly became accustomed to the water again, and how I felt when I didn't have it!

Mother Nature has arrived today, which might explain why the scale still hasn't budged. Tomorrow is WI day for BLBE2 and I was really hoping to log a good loss for the first week! However, I feel like I'm some kind of a safecracker looking for just the right combination to this weight loss safe- I've never factored in AP's in previous losses, and I'm wondering if I need to because I'm staying just about right on with my points and daily workouts, with no difference in the scale. This next week I'm going to eat my AP's and see what happens!

This has been an interesting 24 hours. I blame it on the night shifts (it's soo quiet!) that I've had more time to think about what I'm doing and what part my mind is playing in this journey. My blogging buddies called me out on what I posted earlier, about considering myself unattractive in my goodbye photos. I never thought about what I was saying about myself! I've been thinking about it today as I've seen the comments, and realizing that I do consider myself unattractive, as a baseline. I tried to think back to when I actually thought I was attractive, and let's just say its been a few years. Even I'm thinking, wow. I've always been a connoisseur of sarcastic and dry humor, zero bullshit, tell it like it is. But I've never realized how much I direct that at myself.

Something new to add to my daily to-do list. Stop the negative humor towards myself in its tracks. I didn't realize how much of a part it played in my life, even in off-handed comments. Positive reinforcement has been a goal of mine this final time through the WL journey, but I'm realizing I missed a crucial part of that, getting rid of the negative too.

Thanks to everyone who commented on that- you all are the best!